WoW! Its been a LONG LONG TIME!
I don't know. I just had a compulsive urge to blog. Blog away my frustrations and my worries..
I've been feeling dejected these days..
I don't know.. I feel lost?
College has been scary. I mean... its not HARD but I haven't been doing so well in my chem classes.. (although I'm a chem major)
I'm in talks about changing my major.. but i feel like no matter what.. i'll be majoring in scientific field... so no matter what I'll be taking chem.. haha..I just can't evade it. Plus, changing major is such a hassle!
I'm afraid I won't even pass the current chem class I'm in...I ask myself.. Am i just stupid? Or lazy? I think it might be the second part. Therefore, I deactivated my facebook! Because I'm just on there way too much! Facebook comes with a lot of things that can take up your time! I don't know.. I feel bad that I won't be able to communicate with most of my friends! But I figure, real friends talk to you! Or text you! So I don't think i'm missing much except for not being in on the "scoop" as much! Honestly, I do miss FB! But i'm determined to not go back until either after my two midterms this Friday or until after finals just to show people that I can and I WILL stay away! =)
I've been talking to some people..and they tell me they're having a hard time in college too... I know one who is transferring to a CSU. In a way, I envy her. She can just drop everything and go back to the Bay. But I feel like I put so much weight on my shoulders and I do not want to disappoint my parents and myself. I know I can do better. I just need to set my priorities. My current wallpaper is "Study Hard. Don't be stupid." I will listen to it!
I've also been praying a lot more than I normally do. I normally pray every night before I go to bed. But this quarter...so much stuff has happened! I feel like I need to talk to God more. One of my best friend's mother passed away... and he didn't even tell us straight up. I had to learn from another friend. I don't know why he didn't tell me..except that hes a private person. But I just wish, I could be there for him more. I pray for him every night since I learned the sad news...hoping God will give him the strength that he needs to continue living life as it was before and that maybe one day..he will be able to open up about it!
TTFN!
On a happier and lighter note! RPatz's VANITY FAIR COVER...can i say *swoon*! Gotta go out and buy that mag! haha!
Good luck on your studies everyone! =) | 
